CBT Fail

My therapy ended a few weeks ago. It was useless, to be honest. I know that this is because the therapist just didn't get it though, had I been working with a therapist experienced in emetophobia, I think I would have felt more positive about the whole thing. The last few sessions literally just went round in circles with her telling me patronising things like "But if we vomit, it's because the body needs to get the bugs out of our system, so it's helping us". Oh really? But how do you think you telling me that is helping me? It isn't. I am perfectly capable of rationalising, just the same as you are, but PHOBIAS DON'T WORK LIKE THAT. It's like when people say to someone who's scared of spiders "But it's far more scared of you than you are of it" *facepalm*

Don't get me wrong, she was a really nice woman and we got on well but my time with her was a waste.

So what will I try next? I think it's going to have to be exposure therapy. The thought of it makes me grimace. I'm probably ok with pictures, it'll be the videos that freak me out I think. I don't think I know of anyone who's ever had exposure therapy so I've got noone to ask advice from. A close friend of mine is a mental health nurse so I may ask her if she's any information on it.

Tomorrow is my 35th birthday, I'm going out to eat. I'm going to EAT MEAT and NOT WORRY ABOUT IT.

Sound of Silence

Well, not sure what's been going on the last couple of months but I've not been able to get in to my blog to publish anything at all. Infuriating. But it looks like it's finally up and running again. Lots to tell since I last posted, my therapy is now finished and I've had a stomach bug! I'll be back shortly to update now I can finally post again! Hope you're all having happy, healthy summers...